This week in Journaling - 31st October 🎃

Catastrophe, Overwhelm & Time ⏰

This week I've been journaling about...

🎃 Happy Halloween 🎃

Well in the last week we’ve gained a new Prime Minister but I don’t do politics, so I’ll just tell you what I journaled about over these last seven days instead.

Overwhelm

Life can feel a lot at times, but by writing down my tasks, it becomes so much more manageable. I have my car being MOT’d this week, and at the same time, I’m attending a Networking event (2 birds, 1 stone). I’m finalising quotes for the new TJG journal (yes, I’m releasing an actual journal) and at the radio station this week, we have the Radiothon. All of this equals a BIG WEEK.

Catastrophising

I wrote about this a lot this week. It’s something that surprises people about me. My mind will drift off and play out the worst-case scenario of a simple situation. It’s something that I’ve recognised that I do and am now able to catch myself mid-thought and prevent it from getting any worse. It can lead your mind to some dark places and that is never a good thing. But, by writing about it, I'm able to rationalise why I have these thoughts and understand that it is not unique to me.

Time

I don’t know if it’s because of my recent landmark birthday (50) but I do feel like things are moving quite fast right now; I do have a lot on my plate. I’ve recognised this and the thing that grounds me time and again, is the thought that I can only control what I can control. So, time is moving on, but I don’t have the ability to stop it (imagine that superpower!), so I just need to make the most of the time I have available to me. And yes, it’s a balance!

Home

I watched a short video this week and it triggered so many thoughts about where home actually is. I’m from Kent but have been living in Devon for the majority of my adult life. One person in this video had a similar upbringing to me, they moved a lot as a child. By the age of 10, I’d lived in 5 homes in 2 different countries. Since moving out of the family home at 17, I have lived in dozens of places, I’ve lived a very transient life. This kind of makes me feel like I want to put down roots, but equally, that feels like a tie which could stop life’s adventures. This matter is unresolved.

Decisions

Life is full of big decisions; the right job, the right partner, what we choose to do in our free time, etc. When you look back on some of the decisions you’ve made and how it has changed your life, it can get quite deep. I’ve been reflecting on this over the last 7 days and looking at the potential big decisions I have on the horizon too.